Back to a 3 Legged Household

Most everyone knows by now that I lost my baby on Monday.  This isn't something easy to talk or write about so I will make it brief. No one gets pregnant hoping to lose their unborn child so there is no way to prepare for it.  It sucks, hurts, frightens, aches and angers every inch of your body.  I keep trying to figure out what went wrong when I know deep down there is nothing I could have done to prevent it.  I guess that is what hurts the most.  I have so many friends with beautiful healthy babies and I wonder, why did this happen to me?  Why did I draw the short straw?  On the other side, if this had to happen to someone in my life I'd rather take the pain than give it to someone else.  I would never want anyone I know or love have to go through this.  I know I can handle this and that this experience will only make me stronger.  Spencer has been an amazing rock in my life and I'm so thankful to have him in my life.  To my family and friends, thank you for your encouraging words and prayers.  I love you all very much.

 I guess I'm meant to be a mommy to only one baby right now, my little 3 legged love, Meadow.

Hair Hell

This first trimester has been hair hell.  I shave my legs and 5 minutes later I feel the need to shave again.  I'm assuming it's the prenatal vitamins but I'm really ready for this to stop.  I can cut my finger nails and two weeks later they are a quarter of an inch long.  Granted, my nails have always grown long fast but not this fast.  I'm having to clip them every other day.  I'm just waiting for dark facial hair to start growing which I hear can happen.  The one positive is my hair on my head is growing fast as well.  I haven't had a haircut since the beginning of February and I'm curious how long it will get by December.  My hair hasn't been this long since I was little.  I'm thinking I might grow it out and cut it once the baby is born and donate it to charity. We'll see if I can go that long without a haircut.