Most everyone knows by now that I lost my baby on Monday. This isn't something easy to talk or write about so I will make it brief. No one gets pregnant hoping to lose their unborn child so there is no way to prepare for it. It sucks, hurts, frightens, aches and angers every inch of your body. I keep trying to figure out what went wrong when I know deep down there is nothing I could have done to prevent it. I guess that is what hurts the most. I have so many friends with beautiful healthy babies and I wonder, why did this happen to me? Why did I draw the short straw? On the other side, if this had to happen to someone in my life I'd rather take the pain than give it to someone else. I would never want anyone I know or love have to go through this. I know I can handle this and that this experience will only make me stronger. Spencer has been an amazing rock in my life and I'm so thankful to have him in my life. To my family and friends, thank you for your encouraging words and prayers. I love you all very much.
I guess I'm meant to be a mommy to only one baby right now, my little 3 legged love, Meadow.
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i've always thought it is kinda lame when people send virtual hugs to each other, but i'm going to go against my better judgment and do it right now.
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so there. i love you, poopy head. i won't pretend that i know what you're going through right now, but i hope you know that i'm always here for you.